Better late than never: A full confession
I am on a journey. You are welcome to join me here. You don't need to pack anything for the trip; I don't even need to pack anything for the trip. In fact, I will be unpacking things along the way.
Yes, this is a personal blog. No, you do not have to read it. But if you do, a little encouragement can go a long way. Hopefully, we can encourage each other.
I am staging an intervention. For myself. Earlier this year I tipped the scale beyond 300 pounds and for the first time in my life grew scared. So I began to change the things I knew to change--portion control, certain types of foods, whether or not to exercise, drinking water--but ultimately these things will only take me so far. You see, I am an addict. Among other things I am addicted to food. The sights and smells of food being prepared in the kitchen only serve to heighten my arousal. I eat because I'm happy; I eat because I'm sad; I eat because I'm bored. And if I really like it, I will eat some more. That's how I got into this mess. Changing the things I knew to change will not be enough. I need an intervention.
My intervention is taking the form of a full-fledged program. I have a meal plan and a coach and an exercise plan and an education plan. The restrictions are so confining I find it ironically easier to follow the plan. There is no ambiguity. Do this this way and you will find success. Stray, even just a little bit, and you will die. (I mean this both figuratively and literally. I recognize that either way I will die. But if I lose weight now it will be easier to carry me to my grave.)
Yes, I aim to share what I have learned along the way. Some of it will be universal knowledge that can help everyone. Some of it will be specific to me and perhaps you will find a connection to something similar in your own life. That's where we can encourage each other.
Blogs are curious. Most get started too hastily and end too soon. Still others don't know when to quit. This will be my third attempt at blogging. In my first two attempts I tried to deal with topics that really weren't that important to me. I didn't allow them to consume me the way my weight is now consuming me. I suppose this third time will be a charm.
Lastly, I hope you find me in my writing voice. I understand that most likely I am writing to myself. But I also know that my writing voice tends to be very academic. Here, I just want to be me. First person. Casual. I want the content to shine only.
I am on a journey to living a longer healthier life. Wish me luck!
Yes, this is a personal blog. No, you do not have to read it. But if you do, a little encouragement can go a long way. Hopefully, we can encourage each other.
I am staging an intervention. For myself. Earlier this year I tipped the scale beyond 300 pounds and for the first time in my life grew scared. So I began to change the things I knew to change--portion control, certain types of foods, whether or not to exercise, drinking water--but ultimately these things will only take me so far. You see, I am an addict. Among other things I am addicted to food. The sights and smells of food being prepared in the kitchen only serve to heighten my arousal. I eat because I'm happy; I eat because I'm sad; I eat because I'm bored. And if I really like it, I will eat some more. That's how I got into this mess. Changing the things I knew to change will not be enough. I need an intervention.
My intervention is taking the form of a full-fledged program. I have a meal plan and a coach and an exercise plan and an education plan. The restrictions are so confining I find it ironically easier to follow the plan. There is no ambiguity. Do this this way and you will find success. Stray, even just a little bit, and you will die. (I mean this both figuratively and literally. I recognize that either way I will die. But if I lose weight now it will be easier to carry me to my grave.)
Yes, I aim to share what I have learned along the way. Some of it will be universal knowledge that can help everyone. Some of it will be specific to me and perhaps you will find a connection to something similar in your own life. That's where we can encourage each other.
Blogs are curious. Most get started too hastily and end too soon. Still others don't know when to quit. This will be my third attempt at blogging. In my first two attempts I tried to deal with topics that really weren't that important to me. I didn't allow them to consume me the way my weight is now consuming me. I suppose this third time will be a charm.
Lastly, I hope you find me in my writing voice. I understand that most likely I am writing to myself. But I also know that my writing voice tends to be very academic. Here, I just want to be me. First person. Casual. I want the content to shine only.
I am on a journey to living a longer healthier life. Wish me luck!
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